Saturday, March 24, 2007

Many things to be done soon. To my friends out there who are stress. Please take care.

Bad week with me screwing up all my quizzes. I do not expect much already. The only thing i can do now is to really study hard for the finals but it wont be easy for me who has no motivation.

signing off... audrey at 12:04 AM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

There are alot rumours going around in our course. But so far, i cant be bothered with it but i have already join the bagua group. Lol. There would always be gossips about these when we ever go home or go to school today. So funny. There is nothing wrong with it ya. Haha.

Too many things to do too little time. This week is going to be burnt with 2 quizzes with little time to focus on others yet again. I havent been focusing anyway. Lol. I will be so dead.

Wednesday. Went back Sr to settle some stuffs with ag as well as meeting up with some teachers. They are still the same but most of them have also left. The school has changed alot but i think after this day, i wouldnt go back there anymore. There is nothing there that i feel that i had leave behind and go back for.

Yesterday. Work in the morning which made me feel that i m already super old when i finish work ytd and woke up today.My body aches so much like i just finish a training and my back hurts even more than before to the extent of getting out of bed is alread aproblem, what more walk. Old lady here. Even if i dun work also hurts. What else can i say. A young gal with a body of an old lady. So so tired yesterday. Evening had a family gathering at my cousin place. I wasnt that on that nite. Was too tired. The red wine David brought was horrible. It is one hello kitty brand one. 1998 Version. Dun waste money on that. I have a bottle at home too but i got no idea how it got there. Was the first to least. Nothing much to do. Chris brought his new girlfriend. Haha. Then there was a topic about his age lar. Haha. It was damn hilarious. As he was 10 yrs my sister senior, so is like no need guess but my father go ask his mum he how old then my aunt reply 97 97 97yr count urself. So funny. It is suppose to 79 lor. Lol. Then my dad purposely say about 4d, my aunt run away coz she became an avid christian who dun gamble nor drink. That scene was really hilarious.

Today. Did nothing much as compared to previous weekendS. Not even did i complete my maths tutorial. I wonder how will i survive tmr. Did help to cook dinner today. But kinda piss of when dad keep hindering me when i cooked that i juz walked off. He keep critising me. So irritating. I somehow feel that my mood today was on the very bad side. Haix. Adjustment period required again.

The musical fountain is closing on 26 march to make way for the IR. Please go to catch it one last time before it no longer exist anymore or even it may exist in the future, perhaps it will be a different experience. Well, I can only go after my quizzes has end which is the end of the week. So... sian.

Sorry peeps for not able to acc, go out with you all as i have been really busy recently. Sorry for that.

signing off... audrey at 11:53 PM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Life has been a mess lately. 1 more mth to exams yet not knowing where to start. Body has been in a big mess too. It really hinder me alot. Room is also in a mess. so is my brain. I seriously also do not know what to do. Stomach still in pain since ytd off and on. This is bad, real bad.

signing off... audrey at 8:31 PM

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Yesterday,

Went to school to realize that there is a seminar to attend at 3.30. Met mentor at 3pm or else they would not release the results for the coming sem until we go and meet our mentor. So ...
Following by law lecture. Listening continuously for 3hr is a killer. No wonder i was so dead went i reach home. Luckily, i got a lift from karen dad to tpy so i didnt reach home that late.

Working on sat. Taking a first step towards earning 10000 in 500 days for the trip. Quite a heavy burden. Haix. Had to work this holidays and many future holidays already. Sad.

This holiday: Driving Practical Test and revisions. Windsurfing. Darwin. Maybe special term.

signing off... audrey at 9:59 AM

Monday, March 12, 2007

Very tired!!!!

Shall blog when i m freeer. Going take nap.

signing off... audrey at 8:13 PM

Sunday, March 11, 2007

signing off... audrey at 2:46 PM

Tried another new route to school on friday. Took 186 to queenstown and then train to boon lay. Not that bad actually. Took 1h 20min to reach school. South spine somemore. Haha. Reach boon lay in less than a hr isnt that bad alr. But somehow, luck was on my side that day. Didnt spend quite long waiting for the buses so it is fast. Nothing much happen on friday.

Yesterday, i went to ntu open house with ag. Kinda being a tour guide to her. Lol. Still the same. It isnt that happening anyway. Kinda bored but she managed to collect the brocheres she needs. Wish her all the best in her admission to uni. Thereafter, we went jp to supposedly look at something i happen to saw and perhaps buy if the price is not ex. But in the end, i bought the sandals at 39.90 from rsh. It is rather comfy and it is actually quite hard to buy sth i like and yet comfy so i just buy. A small note: I only saw it in the papers on thursday n i bought it on sat. Kinda fast. Lol. Thereafter, we went to meet ellyn at bugis. Meet at 6 she was late for 9min as we had predicted. But we reach there 9 min even later than her but it is considered negligible to the times we had to wait for her for a significant no of minutes. Haha. Had dinner at Koo Kee dumpling and ramen shop opp Bugis Junction next to chapter 2. The food is not that bad. I still in love with xiao long bao. Haha. Shuang ah. Went to icon for a short walk and then we had dessert at liang seah street. Practically i had been stuffing myself with food each time i go out since there is not much chance of eating really nice food in school where life is go school n then go home. Nowhere else to go too. Had enjoyed myself and i was almost rather dead when i reach home. I apologized to those i had chat with online for the lack of enthusism in the conversation as well as the rubbish things i have asked.

Currently i m dling Always ready. Lol. Hope everyone enjoyed ur weekends.

5 more weeks to exams!!!! Zzz.

signing off... audrey at 12:15 PM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

Super sleepy today. 2 lectures + 1 tutorial i almost slping most of the time. Sian Ah. Dun understand anything at all. Die n be dead.

Knock against the chair in the LT . Now got bruise alr. One big Patch. haix. so clumsy.

Many silly things happen today too. From my fren, she say i m not walking str. Lol. i also nv notice. Tired.

Ytd nite, i took 154 from boon lay then change 186 at whitley road. Maybe it is late alr so the journey from school to home took me 1hr 20 min only.

This morning, i took the north south line on purpose becoz i want to slp but i didnt in the end. I left house as normal and i reach school on the dot. Hehe. One sickening thing that happen is my 179 is extremely slow n 5 buses overtook us, 3 at one time. So sian. Somemore stop at every traffic light. Zzzz.

Lecture in the morning is so boring that almost everyone slp but i manage to stay awake with system shut down but the following lecture, i juz slpt thru it except when he start saying about a case which involve him n his family then i became awake. Some horrible peoples still can laugh at the state of affairs. So bad! Straight after that i went for the early tutorial where the tutor was the morning lecturer. He make me so turn off that i pracically didnt listen a thing.
Note: He do studies on waves so he keep bringing in topics on waves when he say it would not be tested. So silly!!! Should focus on the more impt stuff mah. More waves to come. zzz. And yes, i din do very well for my hr quiz, further influence my decision to su it. And yes, I SU it! At least not too stress that i will get another C for the mod.

Things to do for tmr:
3 online lect by this week. One by tmr.
Econs tutorial.

Weekends going to be burnt. Sat accompany ag to visit ntu. I think that the best i can do as a friend already. Sunday. Another restless day....

signing off... audrey at 8:10 PM

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Tired and feeling sick. Didnt have a good night sleep at all. Not sure what went wrong either but there was a sharp pain whenever i shift my head n even worse when i leave it alone. Had a heavy head the whole day.

Tech quiz suxs seriously. Do not know how to do. Die. More to come soon. Stressed!

I think i am really lousy. I don't even dare to go home with people as i always feel very awkward as i always do not have anything to talk about and i end up always finding excuses not to leave with them. This is really very bad. Strain relationships and i m pretty tired of keeping up with the momentum in school.

signing off... audrey at 11:01 PM

Monday, March 05, 2007

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signing off... audrey at 7:00 PM

Help!!! I need a psychologist. Haha. I think i have been a bitch these days. Haiz. I juz shut another person up. He was asking whether this will be tested for the quiz and i just answer i m not the tester so ask me also no use. Haha. What a bitch m i. Haix. I feel so out in school today sia. Mood also very different. Do not know why but the feeling is entirely different from the time before the recess week. Haix. I think i also feel embarrassed by what i did today. I saw nic n i juz told him i m not going home when he didnt even ask me a thing. zzz . I did what my instinct told me without any thinking. My brain is rather dead, really dead.

The Quiz was seriously crap. He use the tablet to write down the questions. So unprepared!!!! The other tutorial class got 4 horrible qns and us only 2 which is relatively easy. But our class got much discussion going on as well. Haix.

BI talk today was rather interesting. The International Relations Officer, Allen was a nice person. She shared with us about norway as well as its culture as well as the school and the exchange program. The cost for it approx to 8k to 10 k if u live frugally and will increase base on the life style we plan to take on. Time to make plans again. The year 2 was there as well as they would soon be going over and hence this talk is very impt to them so that preparation could be made.

Please guide me. Need to get back into shape asap as well as smoother my badly affected mood.

Oh ya. Please learn to shut up Audrey. Haiz.

signing off... audrey at 6:22 PM

Sunday, March 04, 2007

Think i just shut someone up by saying no comments when he was trying to be concerned when my nick is fu zha earlier. Opps. I feel so sorry about that. But haiz, if i could say i would haf say. Somethings are not meant to be shared. If someone could have share the burden of my problem, i m willing to share, if not why am i feeling so vexed. Haix. Help me!

signing off... audrey at 10:35 PM

4 hr more before school starts again.

One week break gone just like this. I think i really slack through this one week break with 4 quizes on its way to kill me sooner or later as i have not even touch my books. One coming tmr and the day after and another 2 the following weeks which required lots of readings. I m so going to SU my elective even though it is suppose to be relatively easy to score if you go for lecture but i dont think i want to spend so much time on that as i got to settle my core modules first. Argh.

Right now, i do not have much time to be bothered by other stuffs already. Be it bgr, friendships or family problems, i had enough! Tired of keeping up with the appearance that nothing had happened and yet have to try to be a friend in need.. But still, i will still try to help when u ever need help so no worries. About family, the best i would do now is dont think too much and treat it as there is nothing wrong. Bgr, i will leave it to fate bah. Tired.

Hua yang ending seriously suxs lar. =(
But i still like wu zun. =)

signing off... audrey at 8:40 PM

One word to describe - Bad

Storywise i shall cut short.
Went Lai wah to eat. They add alot more tables outside and i believe it is more than they handle resulting in a chaotic situation. Messy and someone trying to disgrace himself so much that i couldnt stand it. Haix, haix haix. I always hate to see sth like this happen each time we eat out and it always happened. I feel so embarrassed.

signing off... audrey at 8:12 PM

Friday, March 02, 2007

Let say that i m someone who always keep things to myself.

It really makes me not being myself. I was never myself. It is a torture.

When i am upset, i cant show it. I can act as if there is nothing wrong and even smile. Only when i am alone then i will juz want to be alone. I hate myself for being like that. 20 YRS of not being myself. What did i live this life for, i wonder.

signing off... audrey at 11:52 PM

Kinda feeling very down now. I do not feel ike talking nor doing anything at all. School is starting soon and i have yet to touch my books.

Accompanied ag to collect her results earlier. It wasnt that good but still, she is disappointed. As a friend, i could not do anything to console her or advise her about what to do from now on. I only can listen to her but yet not saying a thing. It is really very upsetting for me. Feeling very very down now as i feel that i really couldnt help her at all. Upset with myself for being so useless. Even if i got the time now to study, i couldnt put myself into it, for now i really got no mood to do so. What can i do! Heavy heart, tearless eyes and keeping mum is the best i can do for her now. It doesnt do her good if she knows that i m badly affected too. She is frustrated enough already. Please guide me.

signing off... audrey at 8:15 PM